For those of you that had been reading my previous blog may have noticed that I disappeared for a little while. I first would like to apologize and let you know that I am back and ready to blog.
Now as to why I had disappeared is not the most uplifting, but I wanted to tell you all about it and point out a few things. I lost my father unexpectedly at the end of October. On a Friday morning I received a phone call from my brother telling me that my father had died. This is something you never want to hear when picking up the phone, but it is life. Can we ever really prepare ourselves for this…I think not. My father lived alone so there was no one at home to help him at his time of need. My father died just after midnight of a heart attack. He was 63 and living life like a champ, so we thought any how.
The last few weeks I have been a complete wreck emotionally. My father was very dear to me and I loved him with all of my heart. I have lost a grandma and a great grandma in the past, but nothing is like loosing a parent. We go through life thinking that our parents are immortal and that they will always be here with us. When in reality we know this is not true.
I have my days that I get by and I have those days where I think about how I am never going to be able to talk with him again. I am never going to hear his words of wisdom or his joke of the day and I am never going to here him say “I love you sissy”. This really hurts and scares me to death. My friends have been wonderful while they have been trying to comfort me, but I know time is the only thing that is going to get me through this. I will never get over my fathers death, but I know he would want me to move on and that is what I have to do…one step at a time though.
With all of this craziness in my life I fell behind in school. My teachers were very understanding and helpful to me. They gave me a little time to grieve and then I had to turn in my homework late. I truly appreciated everything they did for me. In our busy lives we never know when something is going to happen. Therefore it is important to always try and stay ahead of the game. This way when something does happen you don’t get put so far behind.
Have you or anyone you know lost a parent before?
I would love to hear your story because you can truly relate and understand how I am feeling.